Sobriety Date: 4/13/2021
Today I am a grateful alcoholic. I live a life of freedom. Sober freedom.
When I entered Mountainside, I was scared and fragile. I was misunderstood. I didn’t know who I was.
I will not deny the fact that I was on my death bed—mentally, physically and spiritually. But that is only a part of my story. Because my story now includes my rebirth into this world, this beautiful thing that we call life. But I had to hit my bottom. And if you know my story, I hit bottom. And I hit hard.
One night, my higher power made me see the light. I asked my sister and parents for help. With their love and support, I was brought to Mountainside. The Mountainside staff gave me an incredible experience and support system, as well as the tools I needed to start my journey into the unknown.
When I left Mountainside, I was terrified. But I had a supportive family by my side, a job that welcomed me back, and my dogs who saved my life during my active drinking. But most importantly, I had my incredible Mountainside family.
I attended IOP and saw a therapist who was in AA. I dabbled in random meetings, still a little lost. When I took my therapist’s suggestion of attending a woman’s AA meeting, my life changed. I found my missing puzzle piece.
I have a family; my biological one, my AA family, and my Mountainside family. Yes, my sobriety is me and only me, but I also rely on my village. My sober tribe is always a phone call or car ride away.
I have a homegroup, an incredible sponsor, and I work the steps. I attend online Mountainside support groups and every alumni event possible. Why? Because to keep my sobriety, I need good people and incredible experiences in my life.
I needed to relearn how to live. And I can proudly say I live my sober life with honesty and integrity. I feel at peace with who I am today. My journey isn’t over, it’s only the beginning. We may only have today, so I live one day at a time. And I will love every moment of it.
Just because I am sober doesn’t mean I miss out on anything in life. In fact, I see the world entirely different—filled with gratitude, respect and a whole lot of love. Today I openly share my story. Why? Because I can.
Who am I today? I’m Kati and I’m a grateful alcoholic.