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My journey to Mountainside begins much like yours. A story of trauma, agonizing guilt, fear, anxiety, and pain that was self-inflicted and from others. I say this not to compare my story to yours, but to remind you that you are not alone.
When Mountainside’s Alumni Team asked me to write my story, I was flooded with thoughts of what to share about all that I learned during my time at Mountainside. There was so much to write about, and I could not find the best place to start until I found a box from my time at Mountainside. The box contained a letter from 30 days after my treatment that struck a chord with me. It was long and thoughtful yet simple, “Keep loving yourself, Michele, you are worth the work.” It made me remember my MS camping trip and the lessons I learned atop The Magic Mountain.
When we began the mountain hike; I was filled with excitement to watch the sunset and was thankful to partake in nature’s wonders that I had taken for granted for years. However, I was also very out of shape and worried that I would die before I reached the top! I turned to our councilor and said, “I can’t do it! I can’t take one more step!” She calmly replied, “That means everyone will have to come back down and miss the sunset.” At the time, I didn’t care. After all, I was dying. Then she asked, “What are you going to do in your recovery when things get tough, quit and take everyone down with you?”
At that moment, she made me stop to look at my intentions. She was asking me to think of others’ wants, needs, and desires, even though my thoughts were filling me with doubt and dread.
Suffice to say, I begrudgingly gathered my wherewithal and silently resumed the hike. I was greeted by reassuring smiles, laughter, and joy. Nature welcomed us into its arms to see its wonders, and each of us found a piece of rock to call their own. For the first time in years, I was proud of who I am. I set a goal and achieved it. I listened to others without becoming defensive or lashing out. I thought of how my actions impact the happiness of others. At that moment, I became a new Me, I found hope, pride and a smile on my face and in my heart.
I reflect on that time in my life often and the lessons of self-love that I learned. I learned that blaming, shaming, and complaining will keep you paralyzed by fear of the unknown. I learned to embrace the unknown and not fear the height of the Mountain. When you stop staring at how high the peak of the Mountain goes, it’s easier to navigate the journey and climb up from the base.
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Hi alumni! It’s Wendy from Community Relations. I know many of you from our groups and events. For those of you who don’t know me, I started with Mountainside in February of 2020 and work as the Community Relations Liaison for the Wilton Outpatient location. I am in recovery myself, so I understand the journey. I am so inspired by your courage and commitment to recovery. It helps my recovery to listen to your stories, experience your talents, and celebrate your sober milestones. It is a challenging path with lots of ups and downs, but knowing we are all going through it together makes the journey much easier and a whole lot sweeter.We are always here to support you, to listen to you, and to celebrate your sobriety!
Much love and hope,
Wendy
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