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I spent most of my youth as a people pleaser. The idea of authenticity was challenging for me. I always wondered where I fit in and what people thought of me. I was afraid to speak my truth and be the person I wanted to be. Learning how to speak my truth has been one of the hardest lessons in my recovery. I have had to practice the art of being honest and have heartfelt conversations with people I hold close to my heart. This is certainly going against the grain for me. My initial instinct is to “yes” people to death and tell them whatever they would like to hear – at my own expense. As a sober woman, this is simply not an option anymore.
I have learned that I need to protect my truth. If I am out of alignment with my values, anxiety starts to take over. Once I speak my truth, I am often relieved of all fear and anxiety. The weight on my chest starts to lighten, and I am truly free. It is not that difficult, but I make it seem more difficult when I try to intellectualize everything. When I follow my heart, life becomes simple and takes on a new meaning. It really is true that a problem shared is a problem halved, and if I can be honest with myself and be honest with the people I love and care about, everything falls into place.
By choosing to be honest, I open the door to a whole new life. When I live authentically, I feel most at peace with my recovery and life in general. Every day I choose to keep moving forward.
Alumni Spotlight
Surrendering to Sobriety with Jen S
In the midst of everything 2020 has thrown at us, we do recover. Take the time to enjoy the process and the journey that is recovery – we deserve it! And be sure to drink plenty of Cranberry juice while listening to Fleetwood Mac.
This month, we invite you to join us on the fun by participating in the [Fleetwood Mac Challenge](https://www.vogue.com/article/tik-tok-cranberry-juice-fleetwood-mac)(take a photo/video of you drinking cranberry juice while listening to Fleetwood Mac.) and share it on the Alumni Facebook Group. We can’t wait to see all the submissions.
To help you stay safe and sober this season, Mountainside’s Support Helpline will be available 24 hours a day, 7 days a week from November 19th until January 6th. Recovery can be challenging, but you don’t have to go through it alone. If you or a loved one is struggling, reach out for help.
**Support Helpline: 833 200 6665**
If you or a loved one is struggling with addiction, Mountainside can help.
Click here or call (888) 833-4676 to speak with one of our addiction treatment experts.
