What was the turning point that led you to get help? |For me, the turning point was seeing my family after being homeless, couch surfing, and living in a car. I was high and went back to my mom’s house for some reason – maybe it was a safe haven. Seeing how hurt and sad my family was was a huge wake-up call. I was sick and tired of being sick and tired, of living the way I did.|How did you feel at the beginning of treatment vs when you completed treatment?|In the beginning, I felt hopeless. I felt like I didn’t have a life to live, and that my life would end without drugs and alcohol. At the end of treatment, I realized my life was just getting started. I was hopeful.|What has been the part of recovery for you? Why? |I think the best part has been the freedom gained through the 12 Steps of Alcoholics Anonymous. I’m no longer a slave to drugs and alcohol, nor to my mind. Also, having my mom back in my life is up there.|What has kept you motivated in recovery? |Knowing I’m going to die if I back out. Having people who care about me. And how good my life has become. It’s something not worth trading for a high.|What would you like people who are afraid to receive treatment to know? |Give yourself a fucking chance because you’re going to die. The people just want to help you. You have nothing to be afraid of! Take a chance on yourself because you may not ever get another chance.|What is the best advice you have been given? |”Let god shoot your next shot?” My best shot got me into hospitals, jails, institutions, and this rehab.|What are some of your personal “rules” that you never break? |If it doesn’t apply, let it fly. Pick up the phone when I want to drink or use. Be of service whenever I have the opportunity.|What is the biggest lesson you’ve learned? |Hurt people hurt people. It doesn’t matter who hurt who first…what matters is your ability to heal and forgive.|What gives your life meaning? |Helping others. People have done so much for me, and the only way I can repay that is to extend my hand to others.|List 5 goals on your life’s to-do list.|-Never lose faith in my higher power; die sober.
-Leave the people I meet in this world better than I found them.
-Travel to all seven continents.
-Remember that growth > stagnation.
-Write a book.
|Describe yourself in three words. |Happy, joyous, free. |What would you name the autobiography or your life? And why? |I would probably name it, “I have no clue what’s going on, and that’s okay.” Because I really don’t have a clue half the time, but I have faith my higher power is guiding me even when I cannot see my path.|What song best sums you up? Why?|1-800-273-8255 by Logic. The song starts off with him wanting to die, and ends with him wanting to be alive. And that’s where I’m at today. I want to live.|What do you miss most about being a kid? |No sense of time, no sense of urgency.|If you could go on a road trip with any person – dead or living- who would you choose and where would you go?|The question says one, but I’d choose my Nana and Pop Pop. I’d love to road trip across all of the US, Canada, and into Central and South America. I want to learn more about them, their stories, and the world.
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